no taboo ageplay etc its just wrong please stop it AW

[Trinity-Belle]

I never used to mind doing school girl dress-up, and for the vast majority of guys it was, I'm sure, just a silly little st-trinians type fantasy thing going on. But every so often you get a guy who really creeps you out.

I had one here at the start of last summer. He had asked for school girl... okay... so do lots of guys. But when he arrived and started to relax and explain the role play scenario he said that in real life he was a teacher... OMG... at a girls school.... and then he wanted me to play the role of a girl who would do "anything" to make sure she got her grades... and as it progressed he wanted me to beg him not to tell my parents what I had done and he started using all those kinds of manipulative words you would expect a guy to use to put the fear of God into a young girl. I started to become very uncomfortable with it all. And then it progressed even further and it transpired that I was supposed to be like, 12 or 13 years old.

How the fuck a guy can imagine a 37 year old transsexual as a 12 year old girl is beyond me!

I ended the session early.

And I took "school girl" off my profile.

Ever since then I have worried that he was using WGs to hone his manipulative skills. I know his name (he let his real name slip during the session), his phone number and his car registration number, which town he lives in and which school he said he worked at. I spent months wondering whether or not I should do something... tell someone... I dunno. It really bothered me, and it still does. Just writing about it here is making me feel kind of sick remembering the session.

In the end, after taking some advice from a couple of guys I know, one of whom is a judge and the other a policeman, I did nothing. But I live in fear of seeing his picture appear on the news linked to some horrible crime and to have to sit there and think that if I had said something it might not have happened... but I also have to think, as I was advised at the time, that I don't know of any actual wrong doing and that just because I got a bad feeling about the whole thing doesn't make him a child molester... and also I don't even know that he really is a teacher... that may just be part of the whole fantasy for him.

So I won't do that any more. I am sure there are plenty of other girls who can cope with it, and for sure there is an argument to say that so long as guys like that are doing or talking about this stuff with girls like us, it prevents them from acting out their fantasies in real life. But the counter argument, of course, is that sexual reinforcement is one of the strongest methods of conditioning and so allowing men who actually are that way inclined to live out their fantasies this way may well serve to fix and reinforce in their minds the idea that what they are thinking about doing is "okay" and so make it more likely for them to carry their fantasies over into real life? I dunno... I'm not a psychologist!

We hear all the time in all kinds of ways about the "intensity spiral" where guys need more and more intense experiences in order to get off... and anyone who has been working as an escort for a number of years will have seen some of their own regular clients go down this route, becoming more and more extreme in their behaviour over time. I'm quite sure that cam girls must see the same thing with their regs too. It's like a drug... the more you use it the more you need in order to "get off" because you begin to become tolerant to it.... desensitised... the abnormal becomes normal and the horrific, ordinary.

So for me... I just don't want to be part of that whole thing. It will still happen and other girls will still be happy to do it, and I would not judge them or say that they shouldn't... it is up to each one of us to do what we feel comfortable with. But for me, personally, I do not feel comfortable with age play.